At the end of the day

It's him I miss... I don't tell him because when I say it, it doesn't do the truth justice. Words are just words... I don't desire to love with just words. But in our situation, the only way to reach him is through letters that the Internet relays, when I wish it was me on my way to him instead, or him on his way to me.

It's him I want to see... to sit beside me - to watch a movie with. To laugh with.

It's sad, but it's something I have to live with for now... Crying helps :)

Up early

Amazing, ey? First time in MANY weeks that I'm actually up early when it isn't mandatory. It wasn't even 7 yet when I got up :)

Last night the electricity was out, so that put me to bed early - which was just as well, because I was tired.

As soon as I was in bed, I cried and cried and cried...

Because I miss my South African. Even now I do.

And aside from that, I was hurting for some people. But I am assured that God is listening to my prayers, and to the prayers of my friends. What I ask now is that we will be sensitive to Him speaking to us.

We need your grace, Lord. Thank you for this new day, and your new mercies. I love You. In Jesus' name I pray, amen.

I haven't showered yet, but I have to go take Mango to the vet... She's been behaving droopy and strange since yesterday. I think it's fever. I pray for her healing, amen.

God bless you all!

I was

Something changed. I know it, I can sense it.

Yesterday I kept thinking to myself how hard my heart has become, or how indifferent I've been these days, and so on-

but I see now that my heart isn't hard. I have just become stronger.

Did I grow up?

:)